Discovering ... me!

Do not know if I ever happened to you, but sometimes my only escape is to write, write, write, write, or wander, roam, wander! But in times of crisis ... we must be more restrained! Lately I have heard several times the following phrases: "Nothing happens by chance," or "no coincidence" Sometimes I get upset by the many times I hear the same thing and I confess that my mind is a little angry! But today I found myself thinking that it's true! Several people have crossed my path, an important others not so. Some ventured to know me some not so! But somehow they all had an influence on me! Some were so fleeting that I never even know them or learn something from them ... Others were getting but did not give me anything, not taught me anything ... as they might have taken advantage of me and what I could offer them! Others I have yet to discover them, some have proved to be amazing ... unfortunately others do not deserve any comment from me! I like talking and observing, meeting new people to learn and share experiences with them. I started a new stage in my life and how she needed a change. Stopped living ... I was just walking and struggling to achieve this or that purpose but gradually I've been behind some shielding directions without realizing that was gradually ceasing to live. And oddly enough was reading an article on the Net, I stopped to think what I have escaped ... The experiments that have passed have not been the best and perhaps inadvertently I have made my Christian duties, first and stopped living. I take everything seriously, but came to the conclusion that everything is more important than investing it in someone. I want to love me and find my true elsewhere, but there is always a chance, fell scared. Then regret it because although the message concerned that this step is not. And this article woke me up to this reality. What to do? I'm really interested, but I'm too shy to go ... If the interest is mutual then it should be as lost as me. And it can also be so fragile as I (yes I found it a bit fragile ... but immediately stopped the evaluation) because the unstructured situations also happen to others. Relations, affections is really hard to deal with them clearly. I hope after identifying this situation and readjust myself to follow the path. It's strange how we rationalize any situation so as not vulnerable with us and yet it is this same rationalization that makes us weak.